About vibe coding..

I've been trying to learn coding for 35 years, which is my age. I love coding, and love the fantasy of being a coder. I love the whole thing about it. It's not a unhinged passion, but still something I carry very close to my digital heart. I started with VB6, and excel, and then web and I have never been particularly good at anything. If you ever met someone that loves gaming or sports but are bad at them, that's me. I need to have coding in my life, I'm just not good enough, ever. And that's fine. I discovered vibe coding because I follow all tech stuff. I've been trying to build certain things for years. I'm not necessarily desperate to build them but I do want them. Discovering AI allowed me to build personal web apps I always wanted to but was limited. All of the sudden I was able to build all web apps I wanted. I did 8 different projects in weeks. None of these things were for everyone, but very specific, tailored apps that help me at work, and in my personal life. Kinda trivializes the unbelievably fucking hard thing that is to learn evem the most remote thing about coding. Ive quit so many times becase concepts and terms I don't get. I still don't know what the fuck a prototype is in JavaScript even tho I got the certificate from FCC. Yet here I am building things that not even my imagination could put together. Am I enjoying it? Yes. Has it been beneficial? Fuck yes. I have been given the tools to create things my skills can't help me to. At the same time, as a person that have been trying to learn since I'm like 15, I know this isn't something to be trivialized. But at the same time I do have tools that trivializes it and they're available and free and works. Am I a disgusting person for feeling empowered? This is the first time in my journey I'm able to build actual things with the help of thear tools, but I also feel it's so disrespectful because I struggled for ALL MY LIFE trying to learn it. That said, since I stated vibe coding I've learn so many shit